Thursday, September 7, 2006
fumed
i will pocket my bitter pills of 4 of september. wishing for no repeated telecast even in my mind. & sumhow my short-live joy moment was more to relish on how foolish i looked.on the other side of emotions, im throw off by a particular mental state of mind. ANGER. as a longest serving buddy of mine, yaya, insisted that im had been never really clouded by that sour despair. for the past countless years of our friendships, theres never a chance to her to see me in heated mode. she was naive that she would even desire to see me incensed. that she will on later dates insisted on testing my anger limits. that allowed me some timeless minutes to ponder. & the back of my mind will not even be realiable to recall the last time i set myself ablazed with outrage. she said that i will not even be close to synonyms of anger. im always the gleeful-joyous-smiley-kid. who seems perturb by the meaning of furious. i will only smile when even infuriated. any of you guys seen me in full fury?
well the logical explanation beyond my euphoric nature is, im not expressive. i ll keep my dire frustration to myself. keeping in tight locked. im do face fuming emotions ; nevertheless im human afterall . its just that theres an abhorrence to me causing a harm to other's heart or feelings. strong antagonism to hurt. sweet huh? its simply because i will fall into a state of regret if i ever ' did it '. & its isnt a epoch. the longevity of my regrets is uncomparable. its will be reminded like a rewinding tape machine. else i really on concern to be likeable so hurting is a definite no no.
so where does my collected chagrin when? sumhow i learned. to coverted those to positive energies. when im fuming , the gym is the first pit stop. laying out my full rage on the machines simply to strengthen the muscles. anger simple allow me to brace myself to a limits sumtimes my body could take. & it is beneficial though . the only way to increased my mass frame is to force.
if else its just the pillows for the punching bags.
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